Last night I was frustrated. I asked myself why I devote 24/7 to homeschooling and homemaking. What's the point of spending myself with no pay and what I thought was little good to my family.
Then I woke up to chocolate covered strawberries delivered from my little sister (and a mommy herself). Mmmm, I had a chocolate covered strawberry breakfast!
Ted gave me a card that made me cry it was so sweet, and gave me more chocolate (that I used as decoy chocolate so I wouldn't have to share the strawberries, shhh.)
I thought about skipping church because I still had a self-pity hangover from the night before.
Then bam!
Church today was completely dedicated to honoring moms and helping them know they are seen and honored by God. So I cried a lot (again).
I realize now Saturday night had been an attack on my decision to spend these years investing in my kids.
Feelings of worthlessness and the things I lack in this season of my life covered up the truth.
The truth is I am a (see photo below);
I have a wonderful (24/7, intense, life changing, really hard and sometimes near impossible, occasionally disgusting) job.
The truth is I am paid by the honor the Lord gives me. That Honor cloaks me like a queen's robe.
It makes what I do beautiful.
I made the food, and they decorated (and asked if they could eat my chocolate incessantly).
After lunch I handed Jonathan the camera, and he took my picture;
That's what I look like from Jonathan's view. He also took pictures of my shadow. Which is funny because he is my little shadow. He will often come find me saying "I'm a lonely!".
Here's little Peter Pan's shadow self portrait;
His photo of the treetops;
and our picnic;
Then Dorathea took over the camera and photographed me.
She had busied herself in the craft closet as I told her Lunch was ready saying,
"Mommy you can't hurry an artist."
"Actually you can." I said
"But it doesn't work very well." she countered.
5 minutes into lunch she brought out her creation saying, "Sorry Mommy. I couldn't fit in 'Mother's Day.'"
But I think it was prophetic.
I am a Happy Moms.
I kissed her and told her this was even better, because it's who I am.
Galatians 6:9
"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."
Thank you for Mother's day my little family!- Allison